not sure if i am moody or what is going on but tonight i was a little teary as i prayed for thomas. i usually try to put him in the crib before he is completely asleep. he has been good about falling asleep without one of us holding him. (although lately, he has been conning us into giving him a little back rub or singing until he is asleep... he caught us in a moment of weakness and now he objects loudly when we leave before a little rub and a song).
tonight, i just wanted to hold him for a bit. as we have all been noting - these little guys are growing fast! soon they will only want to be held when they are tired. even now, he is getting really squirmy. it is hard to hold him for long and when he wants down, he pushes hard with all four limbs against my stomach and chest. so anyways, i was just holding him in my arms, looking at his peaceful sleeping face. sometimes i bring him over to the little night light in his room so i can see him better :). before i put him down in the crib, i prayed for him and also prayed for all the many couples we know that are pregnant or trying to get pregnant. for some reason, i couldn't hold back the tears. it is no wonder that jesus loved children - they are so amazing, innocent, and pure, etc, etc, etc. there aren't enough nice adjectives to describe their wonder. it made me also realize that it was truly God's grace that all four of us got pregnant at around the same time (there were four of us couples, all seeing who could get pregnant first! :) because it is really hard to know when God's timing is for you. i mean, four out of four! that is amazing odds, esp with 2 of us almost in our mid-30's. figures that you young un's got pregnant first! :)
i was looking back through some of his early pictures and it is hard to believe it is the same baby. i can't believe that little stripped cap from the hospital fit on his head! and even though he was cute, we can see now why people really enjoy them after 9 months - they are so much more interactive and really start to show their personalities.
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completely different topic but we get this UCLA magazine every month because both william and i are UC alum association members. this month there was an article about the crisis in african american applications. since afirmative action has ended, it has gone down exponentially and this current year of freshmen is only 2% african. wow... that is pretty shocking. they said latin decent and native americans have also fallen. i used to work in HR so my belief has always been hiring always based on skills and fit for the position offered, never based on outside factors (gender, race, religion, special needs, etc.). that transfered over to my thoughts on college admissions, never thought much of preferential treatment for ethnicities because it didn't seem fair. however, william and i just watched "Akeelah & the Bee". it was a great, family movie by the way, a little predictable but completely enjoyable! and it reminded me that there are a lot of kids out there with huge potential but no resources or mentors. so they end up channeling that talent negatively. now i realize that even if their ethnicity got them into college, the opportunities afforded to them once they are there can help them rise above. at any rate, it really surprised me that diversity had dropped so low... at least they are working aggressively to reverse that trend.
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